Maaya- A story of love.

As the darkness of the night blinded everything around him, he is alone, standing on the edge of a cliff. Looking at the river 100's of feet below, he thought "Its just one step from here, why am I scared?"

A cool breeze touched his face, made his scarf make waves in the air. This unwelcome guest took him somewhere.Maaya....

He still remember the first day he saw her, he felt as if she is the only presence in a group of people. He tried show his wit, "I don't care!" is her reply. Days passed and they became more than just good friends, to the extent that everyone envied their love.

Just when he felt everything was perfect, he discovered that Maaya was hiding something from him. Day by day he observed that she was becoming weaker and when the reason came to him it's more than sadness, than horror, than emptiness. Maaya was suffering from a terminal illness. Even under insurmountable pain she was always smiling and she hid that from him for 6 months now.

She now had only few days left.
As everything before him blurred, he came back to the present. His eyes now filled with tears he remembered her last words spoken just a day before, "Don't do anything stupid, I love you and will always be with you."

She said she would always be with me then why am i feeling this infinite emptiness around me not even before a day has passed without her.

"I am standing here alone for two hours now, unable to take one step, am i scared? Why should I be scared? After all a life without her is not worth living for me" with this thought, he closed his eyes, took a deep breath, stepped ahead.

After few seconds of free fall, he was thrust into icy cold water. He struggled in the water, grasping for one breath of air. Many pictures came into his mind, his childhood, his friends and that day, the day he met her, her eyes! As he saw her eyes in his mind, he struggled no more and let it go.

As he opened his eyes, he found himself falling through a tunnel of darkness. Rather than being scary he felt having a pleasantness beyond words. He kept falling for what seemed like hours, suddenly he saw a bright light at the end of the tunnel and found himself merging with it.

He was now what looked like a grassland. Songs of little birds, a beautiful fragrance, a waterfall; it looked like a perfect place for him.

"Welcome back son, you have done very well!" He suddenly saw someone walking towards him. The person looked like a 70 year old, with a huge white beard. He is wearing a long silver robe. The person hugged him and looked into his eyes with compassion.

"Where am I?" He asked that person.

"Son, you are in the other world, the world beyond the one you came from" He replied.

"Is this something like heaven? and who are you?"

"hmm, You can say so. I am your eternal friend and am usually called as Albus".

"This place is designed to make the transition into this world easier for you. Rest here today, I will come back tomorrow and we will go for your judgement.", saying this Albus left him.

Immersed in the beauty of the land, he wandered for sometime and rested near the waterfall.

Albus came to him at dawn next day.

"Son, I now take you to the judgement hall, I would wait outside till you return back."

They walked silently for few minutes and as they reached the place, Albus left him.

He entered something that looked like a big hall. Everything inside the hall was well crafted.

"Son, you can come and sit here", he suddenly saw that there are few people waiting for him. There are 13 of them sitting on circularly arranged chairs. It looked like people from every race of the world are present among them.

As he sat, he found there is a silvery sphere in the middle of the arrangement.
"Lets start your life review." the eldest of all, a 90 year old spoke.

The silver sphere started showing his life from the moment of his first breath. Everyone was silent and were immersed in what looked like an biographical movie. They were smiling for every good deed he did, gave him a you can do it a little better look for his mistakes and as the end approached, he found that they were having tears for the suffering he went through with the loss of his love.

As it ended, he saw his own life from various perspectives. He found several situations where he must have done differently.

"You can leave now," one of them spoke to him.

"Thats it?" "what about the judgement?", he asked.

"Son, we don't judge you here, we show you your life from various perspectives so that it helps you when you design your next life." the eldest one replied.

"Do I design my life?" he asked.

"Yes"

"Will I ever meet Maaya again?" he asked.

"This is very strange even for us. As souls incarnate on earth, few souls get attached to each other and prefer to have experiences together. You have to repeat the same life plan again and strangely Maaya wished to be born again as your love even after being aware of the pain she has to go through.There are very few souls who always desire to be destined together, You and Maya are one among them. Your love sometimes gives us tears!" the eldest one replied.

"Albus is waiting for you outside" one of them told him.

As he stepped outside, he approached Albus and asked him, "Why do I have to go through same life plan again?"

With a sudden seriousness Albus told him,

"If you know how much effort it takes to design a life,
If you know how much effort it takes to select the right parents for a soul,
If you know how much suffering a suicide causes to the people who love you,
If you know how many different life plans are disturbed,
YOU WOULD REALIZE HOW GRAVE A MISTAKE SUICIDE IS!"

"Once a soul endes life abruptly with suicide the soul has to go back to live through the same life plan with a little bit added difficulty" Albus told him

"Why the added difficulty", he asked

"Because of the suffering you have caused to the people by your suicide. Son, If you have lived through Maaya's absence for some more time you would have realized your purpose and made your love known as the driving force for the grandeur things you have designed to fulfill." Albus replied.

"I wanted to go back as soon as possible and this time I would fulfill the design" he said.

Albus with a smile replied,"People who commit suicide generally are eager to leave early, but your soul needs some rest. Before we go to your rest place I would love to give you a surprise."

As they walked few more feet, they entered what looked like a garden.

"I will wait outside and you have only 10 minutes" Albus told him.

He entered the garden wondering what surprise he is going to encounter.

"Maaya?" He uttered these words as he saw her watering a plant.

She came running to him. He invited her with open arms, and as she reached him, He felt it! "A moment of no time. A complete merging into joy beyond words" He would gladly exchange many lifetimes for one moment of this.

With a smile Maaya held his hand and told him, "This is my rest place, since I love to be with plants this place is designed for me. I was told that you were coming and was actually waiting for you. I came to know the suffering you had to go through because of my death."

"What about my last wish? Huh, you have broke it" she gave that mysterious angry look which always brings a smile to him and encourages him to tease her more.

Both of them walked the place holding their hands together. Both of them know they don't need words to communicate, all they need is the presence of each other.

Suddenly she sensed that its time that he has to leave.

"You have to leave now" she told him.

"Why did you wish to go through the same painful experience again?" he asked her.

Holding his head with her hands, she kissed on his forehead and told him, "Because I love you."

As he was moving away from her he thought to himself,"This time I would fulfill my design, this time I would live through the suffering of your absence with courage."

Looking back into her eyes one last time he told himself, "I would also tell my story to the people and let them know suicide is never a solution whatever the reason may be."

PS:

Mayaa.......

Is this my story?

You would never know!

The bottom line is "Never commit suicide whatever the reason may be."