My clock says its 2am now!!!

Caution : This post is written for me not for readers!!!

" Dont make any assumptions about Gopi, You see him laughing, joking, teasing. But he is an entirely different person inside. Much more philosophical than you can imagine." one of my best friend's told new people I have made friends with recently.

Funny thing is they mentioned this to me!

I agree with my friend, though philosophical is not a right word!

I was born with interest on how life works (is this philosophical?). Being an extremist i always went into the depths of things. Few years back I got a doubt, "Can a person be happy all the time irrespective of what is happening to him or what happened to him?" This is a turning point. I searched and searched, there are times I read 3/4 books a week. Experimenting, mistreating myself. Going through all sorts of suffering just for the sake of this quest. I came across many so called masters, everyone is telling so many things, yeah it helped me witness many miracles, but no one is giving me the entire puzzle, only pieces!

I was dissapointed but I kept searching and searching. There it is!; one fine day I met a person, he introduced me to Torkom Saraydarian. One of very very few persons I know of who can give you the entire puzzle. Torkom is shaping me now!

"Gopi you look so innocent, so young, but how sweet you are, how much beautiful knowledge you have!" an old man hugged me and told me this 2 days back. I can say this one of the most emotional and best compliment I have ever got till now. But I must admit, "I know nothing, I am more stupid than many people out there."

My dear old man all this things came out of my search and majorly out of Torkom, no credit goes to me.


Now people tell me this,

There are a group of people, who started loving you, accepting you as one in their group. Eventually you fell in love with the group. You love the sheer pleasure of being with him. Now you realized that the direction in which the group moving is not right, at least not in the same direction as you. You realized that the belief system of the group is wrong. You truly love them and want to help them.

What will you do?

You have only two options,

1.) Run away from the group
2.) Be in the group and try to help them.

Obviously you would say a person has to choose 2nd option.

But what if the group contains 100's of people?
what if it contains 1000's and much more???

Fighting with the belief system of single person is itself a Hercules process, what can be done with a group of this strength??

I don't understand "Why is it always be so much difficult!!!"

I decided to keep doing what I am good at doing. i.e. "Keep moving ahead, no matter what!"

PS: My clock says its 2:23 am now!!!!