Childishness? no more!

I am overly childish, overly mature....:P

I know I made a contradictory statement here...:)

People who know me from a distance think I am humorous. People who know me a little bit more think I am childish and the closest ones that i am overly mature.

What am I then?

Well, it's obvious that the closest ones are correct. But why am I having different self-images, especially contradictory ones?

This is my blog, and let me be truthful here.

I have never met any person of my age who is as mature as me, It scared me. if I am myself people may not accept me. This is the constant thought in my head. So the childish image is all artificial, all made up, good acting skills i think...;)

This image is so hard to get rid of now. I have a sense of humor and the challenge is to get rid of this childishness without loosing humor. I failed to achieve it till now. I cannot afford loosing humor, which saved me many times from insanity...:P

This time I think I am achieving it..(atleast i think so..:P)

And the voice inside my head says, "Childishness? no more!!"