Who am I?

I am not my personality....I am not my personality....I am not personality....I am not my personality!!!!!

I knew it all along that I am not my personality.But!

Almost an year, i spent my time studying various personality systems. These systems are the tools that would give us a picture of how, what our personality is. How we behave, what motivates us, what demotivates us, what are our natural tendencies etc etc.

Frankly, I did not study them to the depths, but I touched good number of these systems with one hope.

Hope to find Who I am!

But if I am in my right senses, I know I am not my "personality".

And when the something that is the real you growing in you, it would be confusing if still try to derive yourself from your personality.

I need to remember this. Once I go out of this blog, I might again go back to the same notion and again try searching myself in it.

I am not my personality....I am not my personality....I am not personality....I am not my personality!!!!!

Then y do I or people keep searching for themselves in personality?

I think because personality is easy to catch or may be tangible.

Then, How would I go beyond it and catch and hold onto my real self?

That's a question, and I will get an answer soon.

Meanwhile a quote from Torkom....

Modern man hates commands and orders. That is why he does not have willpower, concentration, and discipline. Instead, modern man obeys instantly the urges of his body, sex, stomach, habits, thoughts, and posthypnotic suggestions. He hates to obey a command from his Father or Teacher. 

The more we control our personality, the more the willpower increases within us.

The Moment in my Friend's life

Today Marks an important day in my friend's life!

In our long lives we meet so many people, some turn to friends, some to best, close and all the categories, some into lovers (yeah, some;) ), and wives..:P

Momentzz...I believe our lives are collection of several moments, right from our first cry to holding hands of our dear ones, crying, celebrating and much more!

I had several loving moments with a friend, who in several untold ways has been a guide, teacher, or even a motherly figure, scolding me!

It is said, love happens in unexpected ways, in the unexpected turns of our life.

It happened to her too in the most unexpected ways. I have been present through all her confusions, crossroads, romantic swings....and boy! it is such a pleasure to witness a love story in making.

One thing I truly realized is, this something called love really happens in unexpected ways. Your loved one might be waiting at any corner or any path you might be taking now or later.

In every love story there comes a moment, when each of them make a commitment...umm...its like a moment where both say to each other that they love each other.They might be knowing all the way from the moment they met each other., but the moment when they decide to spend rest of their lives like one being....its one if the most important one!

Today marks inclusion of that moment in my friends life!

And she gave me an audio file of how she proposed, which includes a song also!

Ohh Dear God, my dear old man...with a white beard!!
Ohh dear Goddess., my dear every glowing, most lovable woman!

You both better see that their journey is filled with love, joy and many blessings!

And I don't see any other option for you!

Meeting a remarkable man named Gurdjeiff

It's a circular hall with podium in the middle.

Several people were entering the hall and it's announced that the speaker of the day is "Gurdjeiff".

From the people who are entering, you could see legends, masters and several famous people.

and what am I?

At that moment I knew that I am nothing compared to them but I was lucky to be present in the same hall with them.

I humbly sat somewhere in the last and there he is!!

My master. I could feel an instant flow of love, gratitude and respect towards him. He sat in the first row. I picked the book lying in my lap and went to him.

"Master ", I said so politely that some part of me is thinking, "Why i am so polite, loving towards him? What is he?"

"I wrote a book, it is about my life", I continued and handed it over to him.

He opened that book and to my utter horror, "Almost all the pages are empty!"

Sensing my insides, He gave a laugh that sounded like a roar.

"This is your life and it is what you write it to be", he said with a calm face.

Few hours Later.....

I woke up!!

Yes, this is a dream!! But one of the rarest of its kind.

Well, I remember the below reactions as soon as I woke up

1. Who is the person to whom i felt so much love, respect towards?
2. What is the strange place where this meeting happened, am definitely sure it is not of this world and moreover it happened in a dream.(May be an Ashram, as told by Torkom?)
3. Who is Gurdjeiff?! (well, he is in the pic for now)

Even today I don't know whether i heard his name somewhere before or for the first time in s dream! (quite strange, huh?)

So, I searched him in Google and found out that he is an extraordinary man who lived an extra-ordinary life.

I tried reading some of his books, but always could not go more than few pages.. (This dream happened 2-3 years ago, so either i am lazy, delusional or both)

Do you see, sometimes you meet people coincidentally, but meeting them in a dream! - its definitely more than just a coincidence..

Time to see if I can read some words written by Gurdjieff, bye for now!

Invictus - My favorite poem

Have you ever read a poem, that you knew this is the one you would like to remember and carry with you an entire life?

Well, I have read one such poem named Invictus by William Ernest Henry and here it goes!

Out of the night that covers me,

Black as the Pit from pole to pole,

I thank whatever gods may be

For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance

I have not winced nor cried aloud.

Under the bludgeonings of chance

My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears

Looms but the Horror of the shade,

And yet the menace of the years

Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,

How charged with punishments the scroll.

I am the master of my fate:

I am the captain of my soul.