Our dear ones

I wanted everything around me to be silent, I want to concentrate on what I am doing, but it's noisy and it disturbed my mood.

Just then I got a call from one of my dearest one.

I didn't talk properly, I was not responding the way I would generally. I am showing my bad mood.

He didn't say a word. He understood I think.

I ended the call with the same mood.

As I am alone in my room, my heart started talking. I have been developing heart qualities for a while now and I am happy to say that my heart plays a major role in my life.

You have to call back, he is your dearest one, don't be scared, heart told me.

So I called back, while I was listening to the caller tune, I was thinking how to start conversation, how to apologize.

As he picked up the phone, asked me, "What happened?"

I didn't talk properly so I called back, I told him.

He laughed and immediately started conversation.

20 mins and it all ended differently now and I am at peace. (My heart is!)

Many times we show our bad moods on dear ones, and it's very difficult to apologize after. Fortunately the best thing about our dear ones is they would understand us even before we apologize.

But do we really recognize their value in our life?

My dad sometimes says to me, "Many people realized the value and greatness of your grandfather only after he died."

This always stayed in my mind. It should not happen with me I told myself.

I have many dear ones in my life. The best family, friends, relatives, colleagues....

Dad would say, "Wherever you go, you always have a family, the perfect people, the perfect circumstances, i think you are the luckiest one."

Yes, I am very lucky, right from my childhood I was always with people who love me, who are always there for me.

Strange phenomenon is the more close a person becomes to me the more chance that I show my bad mood on him.

I am changing it now a days, with the help of my dearest 'heart'.

People, we many times take the dear ones in our life for granted and overlook their true value. It's not always easy to say a sorry, also it's better to prevent these situations than going for a cure.

I wish Gopi would face his bad mood next time with courage!

On a rainy day with a choco chip cookie

As I lazily opened my eyes after a short mid day sleep, i realized it's raining outside my window.

Rain!

I got up, opened my refrigerator, took out a choco chip cookie and went into the balcony.

With cookie in one hand and other hand stretched out to feel the tiny droplets of water, I went away...backwards...years back!

I was waiting for my brother and suddenly a thought came to me, "Its sunny now and if i ask the nature to rain, will it happen?"

Okie, let me try, I thought and asked for rain.

5 minutes passed and there it is!

Remembering this, unconsciously i wore a smile on face, the hand with cookie is empty now.

A 12 year old going by the road saw me and gave a smile.

Is it tea? I asked him.

Yes, he replied.

Do you sell it? I asked.

Yes sir, he replied.

hot chai and tiny droplets of rain, perfect! I thought.

Went down, bought the chai.

Wat do u do ? I asked the boy.

I do my own business, I sell tea to people around here. he replied.

A 12 year old entrepreneur! Vaah!!

Its after he left, I realized someone is shouting behind me.

Ricky!

He waits for few minutes to see if I am coming to him or not. If I dont go, he would bark, jump and do all the natak.

I freed him and let him play with me. He would jump, fight, chew my hand but at the end both of us are joyful playing like two 5 year old kids!

In few minutes,

I had rain for me,

a choco chip cookie,

Hot chai!

play with ricky! and yeah

opportunity to meet a 12 year old entrepreneur.

The more you grasp the little things of life, the more you realize how joyful life is!

It goes beyond what you can see!

It's just a small thing!

No one is recognizing me, then why bother doing this at all!

Small acts of kindness don't matter!

Life is full of unconnected events!

Have you ever had these kind of thoughts? The thoughts which say that you are a tiny fragment in this vast world, that the things you do are forgotten within no time or the value of things you do is the equivalent to the praise you get?

I used to have these things in me, but no more and in order to eliminate these from you, I would tell you a story.

A story of three persons, lets name them as person1, person2 and person3.

Person1

Person1 born and grew up in Asia, he witnessed holocaust in his early age, He learnt from many great sages, went to every Ashram of Asia. Then he went to USA. He dont know english much, but he has things to tell to the world, He learnt English.

His entire life he would wake at around 4 am in the morning and would start writing for few hours. He did that for many years and at the end there were totally 140 books!

He was unable to see that all his books got printed in his life time. After he died, his daughter took the job of printing his books and i think there are still many books to be printed.

Person2:

Person 2 is person who searches for knowledge, He went for organization to organization, Gurus to Gurus and satisfied no where. Even one of his close relative is a well known person in India. But he was not satisfied. He was frustrated!

One fine day he wrote an email to person1's daughter, saying that there is no where true wisdom available.

Person1's daughter sent him a parcel. A parcel full of her father's books worth more than 1 lakh as a gift to him. She told him to read those books.

Person 2 after reading his books, for the first in his life felt that he found a real master. He decided to let as many people as possible know about the existence of person1.

Person3

He is a young fellow, searching for true wisdom. Like our person2 he tried all possible places and methods.

Someone told him, "If your search is true, you will find it!"

His search is true, but he is not able to get what he want. He wants the path towards infinity!

He was frustrated, depressed, there are times when he would sleep at night, wishing that he wont wake up the next day!

and one fine day he met Person2 and got introduced to Person1's books.

and Abracadabra!!

Person3 is now a changed person, he now atleast see the path clearly!

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Person1 is long dead, few decades back. He never thought about fame, nor money, nor recognition. He knew in future someone might be in need of true knowledge and he kept writing those books.

Imagine what would have happened to Person2 and 3 if the person1 didn't write those books.

Hats off to him, and for his vision.

People, many times we might think how we going to get fruits for our actions, and how soon we are going to get them!

But I would say, look centuries ahead and remember that even a small action done for the welfare of humanity lives forever. Even a small act of kindness lives forever!

You may not be alive to see it happen, you may be forgotten but the affect of your act goes on and on!

It goes beyond what you can see!!

Bro bro little bro

who is this??

Why mom is always with him?

Why dad pampers him more?

Where did he come from?

These are the thoughts in my head during the initial days..

You have to call him brother, people told me. But no one told me where he came from!

I am just 1 and half year old kid and how will I know?

Hmmmm

as days went by I got used to sharing everything, infact I had to!

I never liked it. Someone who always follows me and demands share in everything!

Horrible!

Wat can I do? No option!

and where did he come from? no one is telling me!!! :(

"Its not going to work this way," I decided one day and started competing with him. Trying to dominate. Attract parents attention and prove to them that i am the best!

Any game i made sure I was the winner.

We used to have coin boxes. The red one is mine and the blue one is his. We would occasionally count coins and I would make sure my box has more coins.

even in studies we were always near somewhere at top 20's :P

I was in 8th and he was in 6th.

and he got 1st rank!

Oh my god, he got first rank and the worst thing is parents are proud of him!

noo!!

This should not happen!

I studied hard the next few days and I secured first rank in the half yearly exams!

First time in my life! I still remember its jan 8th somewhere at 10:30 am and a friend came to me shouting that i got first rank!

From then both of us are toppers in our classes. He 1st or 2nd generally and i am at 5 or 6.

It all considerably leveled now, i thought.

I am in inter 2nd year and he is in 10th. In my house an entire shelf is filled with all the prizes he got and i have none :(

How can i level it?

So i thought , with good eamcet rank its a state wide achievement and studied hard, secured 118 rank. became sort of a hero those days in my family. My ego, sort of satisfied completely now.

Its year 2006, i came out of house and joined Btech.

Everything went on!

There came 2007, one of my fav years! many things happened in my life and in a way i am changed man.

Till then I tried to dominate him whenever i had a chance!

never let go of single chance!

But I loosened my grip. May be ego started dissolving. One thing is for sure, I started looking at him as an equal, a complete equal!

and he stopped this race too! we started being more like friends!

Ohh yeah, his eamcet rank!

state 36th ranker and that too in medicine. this time am not jealousy, proud, very proud!!

One thing is for sure, I love him!!

I am possessive about him, I dont like if someone or something hurts him!

whenever he did some mistake he would call me and talk to me. i would listen and would say "ok".

Now the funniest part is he would call me again and would ask, when i did a mistake y u r not scolding me? why u say just ok?

haha...!! and I would say "you are learning something from ur mistake, i don't have anything to say"

One funny thing happened today!

He was saving money for 5 months now itseems! he kept all money in his wallet and the highlight is he lost it!!

Haha....he saving!! I cannot even imagine and that too 5 months!!

When he told me this sad thing, i was laughing!! and he angrily asked me "You laughing at this??"

Okay! now no one can bring the lost money back, but see, I know him and he saved money?

Am I dreaming?..:P

When we go together to any family functions people would say to us "In no way you both look like brothers! you are like best friends"....:)

The moment i stopped trying to dominate him, the day i started giving him freedom, many things changed, he became friend to me, not just frnd much more (this is a lesson to many of u out there...:P)

I would end saying this!!

I have done many good things, did many good deeds just because he did them before them!

He is the first teacher, first friend and guide to me!!

Dear Bro, u have chosen this particular set of parents, that too knowing that i am gonna be your elder brother!

Wat a risk u have taken!!

hats off to you!! :D

PS : Can't praise him more and give rise to two horns out there....:P

In the pic, the first one from left is me and the middle is my bro!